Unfinished

The stories that most of us repeat are from our past. Example: "There was a time when Brad was 6 and he and Billy rode bikes around the block. Brad fell and broke his jaw in three places. This was my due date for Hayley and I was tramatized with my child having to be in surgery and have his jaw wired. The end of the story is that God healed Brad quickly and Hayley had a safe delivery." When I see God's faithfulness in the past , the current stories that are unfinished have the same understanding. Problems come when I put a time frame on this ending of the story. I want to be free from the pain of this grief and daily missing Billy. Every anniversary or birthday is a reminder that he isn't here. Did I tell you that his birthday is April 22? I spend a lot of time praying and thanking the Lord that I will see Billy again in Heaven, that God will finish the work that He is doing in me and my family, that the Lord is with me, watching me, guiding me. Even though the final ending is wonderful, I have to work hard to let the daily stories have good conclusions. I have to take my thoughts captive to allow my emotions to retain more positive than negative. The story for today includes, reading the Bible with Ava, taking some groceries to Hayley ( Tyler is sick),seeing a deer run across my property just now, appreciating my good health today, and thanking God that the printer for the computer is working, and yes, talking and praying with Carol. I pray that we can leave our hands open to receive the good that God is doing for us today and continue to release the difficult. I love you, My Friends.