Daddy Loves Me

The class that I volunteer on Tuesday nights at prison started again this week. There are 54 men in this group and 8 volunteers. We use the material that Jack Frost of Shiloh Ministries published called "Embracing the Father's Heart". The purpose of these lessons is to open the men to the challenge that because they have wounding in their lives from fathers and mothers, they have difficulty really experiencing the love of God the Father. When you can't experience love then you can't give it to others and you stay sick. God created us for Love. As usual, I see something in my own life when I watch the Jack Frost video. This time, I felt the pain that I felt as a child from my father's absence due to his alcoholism and my parents divorce. I have dealt with this issue before; forgiven my father and mother and felt peace about them.But tonight, I realized how much this absence from Billy in my life, felt similar to that old wound. Maybe that is why I struggle so with feeling that God loves me from a distance now, while he used to feel close to me.I have experienced God's hand in my life in many ways in the last two years, but I cry and pray often to have that deep experience of being enveloped in His Presence. I will pray some more about forgiving my earthly dad for his absence. I will write some more about this later. This is a process not a paragraph. I love you all.Jennifer. Mom